The 4 L's of Loving

We Love.
  We Lose.
    We Learn.
      We Let Go.

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Loved.

If you follow my blog regularly, you might have picked up on some mushy posts that I have made a couple of months back about me and a boy. Yes, I loved. I loved dearly and I loved with all my heart. It had a wonderful start, a great follow-through and a not-so-good ending. (Pretty much like the ones you see in MMK or those tagalog series you watch on primetime TV. *insert chuckle*)

Lost.

I thought that I have already found my match in him.  It was really magical. Even my friends and family were happy for me because they saw in my eyes that I was truly happy. It still gives a slight (READ: slight na lang!) pain in my heart everytime I refer to the whole thing in the past tense. I WAS happy. It WAS magical. WAS! It was a product of the past. 

Learned.

I have learned alot of things because of that experience. I have learned that it is okay to trust on my instincts. I have always been an optimistic person. I have always thought that the world's full of kind and warm people with nothing but good intentions. But I discounted the fact that there are also people out there who will try to manipulate you, coax you and lie to you just so they can play out their hidden agendas.

But now I learned my lesson.

Let Go.

Like what I said, it had a wonderful start, we had alot of awesome memories. I had a hard time letting go at first. I made several attempts to cut the cord but I kept sliding back. Until finally, I came to my senses and I realized that I should love myself more than anything/anyone.  And cliche as it may sound, I realized that I am too good of a woman to settle for less than anything that I deserve. So I finally let go. I bid goodybe. And this time, there's no turning back.

My heart is somewhere between grieving and healing.  I am finding comfort in the warm hugs and sincere smiles of family and friends. And there's this one song that I keep playing over and over and over to help me get through the pain. I find comfort in the lyrics of this song. And true to the lyrics, I know that it will all get better in time. =)

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BETTER IN TIME by Leona Lewis




Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will


The Unpure One,


-=K=-