Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Tonight let's be lovers...

..and tomorrow go back to being friends.

I have taken the sabbatical and was out of the office from December 23 to 28. A lot of things happened in those 5 days, I don't even know where to begin. I just don't have the heart to delve into details. But all I can say about my current state of affairs is that I FEEL LIKE SHIT!

Whew! It's nice to let it out. It has always been easy for me to trust people too much because I still view the world through half-full eyes. No matter how many times I hear depressing news on the telly, or how my friends tell me about their depressing love affairs, I would like to believe that there is still some good left in this world. I still believe that there are more good people out there. I still believe in happy endings. I think that being too trusting of people will lead to my downfall. But I just can't help it. I am a sucker for all things good and positive.

Well, I think I have run out of positive vibes in the last few days. It's not that I am depressed (because I am NOT). It's just that I feel disheartened when you let people in your life and they fuck you (literally and figuratively, Ha!Ha!) up BIG TIME! I don't even know how some people end up being such mean machines.

So anyway, I would like to stay in this state for awhile. I want to be all bluesy and sad for the remaining days of the year because it is in days like these that I feel human. It makes everything real. Reality bites. Though I just had my big-sized serving of reality, I am still looking forward to a dessert devoid of negativity and pessimism. Yes, I can't help it.

I trust people too much and I forgive easily too. Shot me in the head if you will, but this is how I am wired. I can't stay mad for someone so long. I don't like to harbor negative feelings in my heart. The world is just too good for that. The same way that I am way too good for stuck-ups, and emotionally challenged men.

Yes, Life is beautiful and so am I.


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